Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added to you. Matthew 6:33
Seek God first… It’s my life’s mantra. My true north. My way back to being centered.
It’s 4:30 am and I am wide awake. Another morning where I awaken and can’t go back to sleep. What am I supposed to do? TV, no. Music, no. Eat, no. Instead, I reach for my Bible, turn to the Psalms and start to read. I am quickly caught up in David’s lament in Psalms 27. Oh, how I can relate, for the Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? My day is off to a great start. My soul is at peace. My mind is clear and I am excited about what the day shall bring.
Off to church I go, arriving well before the others. I love being the only one here for the first few hours of the day. There’s something peaceful and sacred about my quiet time here in these hallowed walls. I get to walk the halls praying over the different environments in preparation for the day, the week, and especially the kids that will arrive on Sunday. It’s my favorite part of the morning. After my morning prayers, I get started on my day. It quickly gets overrun with administrative chores – emails, Facebook posts, birthday cards, etc. Before I know it my stomach is growling for lunch. Most people would be surprised to learn that I work at a church as my full-time job. I mean really, what is there to do all week in God’s house to get ready for Sunday? A lot. My time is spent keeping the environment looking good, curriculum prepared for over 150 children, numbers reported from the previous week. and a budget to maintain; not to mention, I have over 90 volunteers to keep abreast of as to whether or not they are going to be able to serve on any given Sunday or not. It sounds like a lot to me.
When I lay in the bed to the last minute, and I find myself rushing, I lose focus. When I don’t spend time in the Word or I don’t allow the Holy Spirit to speak to my soul and give me comfort, peace. or direction; it becomes a rat race. The day passes in a blur and I am tightly wound. Every little interruption causes me to feel irritated and my focus is not on things of God but of the world. It is then that I remember that I lost my way and my day wasn’t focused on God, but all about me and getting stuff done.
So, now I have learned when that happens, no matter what time it is, what I’m doing, or where I’m going, to stop, bow my head, quiet my spirit and seek Him and everything comes together.